hellos ! rushing to school until forget my handphone , lols. i get 14 out of 18 for my math test. i tot i will fail lo. walking up the stairs for a few times today bcos the first floor toliet is closed. stay back & meet linda Jie =]
Edited~im tired and lazy recently as well as easily to lose my temper. i cant really concentrate on studying , paying attention in class , play sports and all that. sometime, i want to skip school cos i really cant concentrate. maybe it has been affected bah. im confused & it make me more stress. my heart say i do but my mind dont say so. wads wrong with me ah? it is not completely the same as last time. i dont really do like before. im going to cry just now .. it is nearly but i never. i dont want to cry anymore. nothing happen. im just confusing & stress on smth. cny is coming very soon. who can accompany me to drink beer and all tat ? im sure i will drink but i want someone to accompany me. im bucking up my studies. common test is around the corner. i need to concentrate my studies le. i dont think i can really concentrate bah. im thinking & really finding the real answer. smile to my friends except me , i feel so sad & soo hais. im going to play bball le .. after that, come back chiong my portfolio le. i not even write a word lo. i need to hand in by tmr ! chiong ahh !!
it's so sad
im tired
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2/08/2010 09:57:00 PM
Thursday never set earlier alarm the previous night . jump up at 6am. i was like 'huh?! 6am? need to reach at 6.35am!!' lols
bath , rushing & pack my bag. took taxi to school. bobian. i was stomachache at tat time but reach school den go toliet , lols. i was rushing until no time to look at my phone for msg! 2hr 45mins den reach lo. den when we're in the bus for our journey , i sleep & sleep , lols.
At shopping mall. smth happen.
it's so touching lo. i realise they care for me de lo. hold me tightly ... shout to tell me to cool down & crying . i shouted at the shopping mall for a few times .. everyone look at me . i throw one chair , lols. i was angry until breathe in 10times , breathe out 1 time lo. i tot im going to die soon , lols. i used 2hours to cool down ? my frens cried. esp chun yi & xin yi .. they cry until v. jialat lo.
i hugged & sayang chun yi & joanne when we reached hotel. i tell them to stop crying & i was crying while im talking .
Change my room . have party den walk around with frens . chatting with afiqah den suddenly , i fallen asleep. afiqah cant sleep well cos she have a prank call at 3am. but i & xin yi sleeping , haha
Friends will be foreverI miss you.290dayx ..[x--






--x]Fridayhad breakfast at hotel. having buffet. i & my frens is the last & the only one group of ppl of there , lols. we having buffet. i take alot but never finish it cos i dont like the food =x
slack at chun yi & joanne's room with a group of frens. i ate a lot during lunch. i dont know why i keep feeling hungry recently. i took 5spoons of rice & i finish it , lols.
worrying ..291dayx[x--









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2/06/2010 08:15:00 PM
hiies. same thing im late. pe , i was still ok playing ruby passing. in the end , i was pek cek of smth. the ruby is in my hand , i throw on the floor den pick up & throw to chun yi. i dont think i spoken vulgar. my classmates seems like they shocked. throw my 2 tags & take up the belt. went to cool down. i tell myself not to cry. it is like finally i explode, lols.
i cant tahan .. i cried at canteen. choir & den met sharen jie . haha , long time no see le hor. cwp , my house den cwp. went to buy knife just now. i wanna kill someone , wahaha. i will see how (:
going to malacca this thursday.
you never change at all. it is seems like you never take this friendship seriously. i said to break our friendship at tat time .. the purpose is i wanna you to reflect. i thought you've change. i was tolerate again & again .. dont bother about wad has alrdy happen but yet, i explode today. so wad you cry for v. long tat time. dont you think i will cry also ? you done wrong , cry for wad ? cry no use lah , go reflect. please la hor .. you're big enough to think it, you're not a kid anymore. put yourself on other people shoes. i explode den you try to think. want me to shout & use my hands den you will really go reflect izit ? you told me to treat you better than her , now i try to but wad have you treat me ? this friendship affected my mind .. not to have friends anymore. not really longer to carry on ..288dayx[x--
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2/02/2010 10:27:00 PM
Hihi . 3galx in my class going sdc . 3pair up .. pair up with Siti & Nalini but siti & me chat niia , lols. i drank two packets of drinks .. thristy , lols. At first , is boring & v. siian . I going to sleep while the guide is presenting. I only like to explore at the Ams (Army Museum Singapore). I play the gun ! fun but i get 0 hit >.<''
I cant see the board !! i shoot when i saw the yellow board, lols. Awhile later, i no more bullet -.-'' ps lo .. my fren get 11 hits ! Anyway, fun lah. I like to carry the gun & the vibration , hahas. To be a army is fun lo .. bombs , guns ! so shiok , haha.
Forgot to take my keys .. i wait for my kor for 2hours ! i bored to dead .. call him , cant get through. msged him, never reply . from this wed, my attitude is poor .. my mind is a bit sot. i nearly jump down at my floor . my leg cross over le. i wont be so selfish & just jump de. badminton training . my kor took my bball . He stupid idiot , never answer & reply my phone. He say want to tong pang me but never. i walked to the bball court . wait for v. long. I getting quite dulan. 1 hour den he answer , my vulgars come out .. i shout . the court turn quiet, lols. fierce at that time. Played den cycle to collect my spect. my dad always dont trust me de lo. i never lie to him abt the spect payment !
surprising, i never cry til now for today cos i never think much. cry in my bed every night .. it make me more sick . my tears is warm & eyes is tiring. things are not getting better . it's like going to be more worse. how much i say .. how much i do .. how much i think .. how much pain in my heart is so terrible sad. nobody knows how i feel . im going to cry le . i dont know wad to say , to prove. one word ' hais '
wednesday sucks! 283dayx.[x--

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1/28/2010 10:47:00 PM
ytd , feel like smoking .. tough to tolerate . stare at cig & asking myself ' should i take? one , one only ' .
dream of smoking also .. it's a bad dream . maybe it is a reminder for me bah . walked to school today . nearly late , hahas. Heard of smth .. took one packet of tissue from Chunyi . I cried for 1 hour .. luckily, nobody see it . they thought my flu is v. serious , lols. while im crying , i feel more sick & i force myself stop crying.
I get 5 out of 12 for my math restest class test . improved by 3marks. but , need to copy each questions plus the answers for 50 times. pass up by tmr -.-
After math lesson , i gave out worksheets . two of my classmates get into fight. v. violent , lols .i
behind them , kenna shocked -.- one of them bleed .
Pe , we having fitness . actually everyday is game de .. i suggest fitness , haha :P We playing rabbit & hunter. Nobody caught me .. i caught chunyi ^^ heh heh
stay back for choir . My voice change le .. i think bcos of having flu . no sore throat ;D Den went to pierce den test my eye & order my spect . right , 270 d .. left, 250 d .
After that , badminton training. one guy wanna challenge me but my coach told me not to challenge cos im sick & somemore my standard will win him ^^ haha
i've improved my smack .
281dayx ..I wont break you both relationship .[x--
i took it de ! hahas
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1/26/2010 08:13:00 PM